Today I felt more physically ill than mentally. I think it’s because last night was so bad.
I felt extremely suicidal last night, and just really alone. I don’t want to go through that again. That was the worst it’s ever been. I was actually scared that I was going to go through with killing myself.
I hate this so much.
Today was a little less mentally draining but I’ve been tired and down all day. Now I can’t fall asleep. I’ve hated my brain and my body so much this past week or so.
I just want this to be over.